Former Runner Settles Multimillion Dollar Abuse Lawsuit

“In her new memoir, This Is Not About Running, she recounts the humiliation and abuse she suffered from coaches and teammates alike, and the health battles brought about by severe restrictions on on her diet, experiences that she says drove her to the brink of suicide.”

“I think what I really noticed first in retrospect was just how almost emotional I was becoming. And in retrospect, a lot of that was because I was being actively abused.”

“retrospect, a lot of that was because I was being actively abused.”

“a lot of that was because I was being actively abused. Yeah, you're gonna cry when you're being held that but I think once I started Starving myself that ability to kind of hold it together Just started to deteriorate”

“what I really noticed for in retrospect was just how almost emotional I was becoming and in retrospect a lot of that was because I was being actively abused”

“życie jego rodziny i jego kraju, jest opowiadana z bardzo wąskiej czysto... amerykańskiej perspektywy, kontrast między jego wersją wojny, która tak bardzo go poruszyła, a tą samą wojną przedstawioną w Hollywood stanowił nic spajającą całą jego życie i karierę.”

“I think what I really noticed first in retrospect was just how almost emotional I was becoming. And in retrospect, a lot of that was because I was being actively abused.”

“that it's taken me years to realize that's what hunger feels like. And I don't think I actually realized that until I started writing this memoir.”

“actively abused. So of course, you're gonna cry when you're being ill. But I think once I started starving myself, that ability to kind of hold it together just started to deteriorate.”

“I think what I really noticed first in retrospect was just how Almost emotional I was becoming and in retrospect a lot of that was because I was being actively abused”

“recall in the book from 2015 where you are just really struggling. And you go to the hotel room that Salazar and the team's sports psychologist are sharing. And you disclose to them that, as you say, I think I'm losing my mind. I want to kill myself.”

“it's fascinating that it's taken me years to realize that's what hunger feels like and I don't think I actually realized that until I started writing this memoir”

“I disclose to them that as you say I think I'm losing my mind. I want to kill myself most days I am cutting myself”

“I want to kill myself most days I am cutting myself Talk about the way that they responded to that, to you. Yeah, I mean, they responded by saying they're tired and wanted to go to bed.”

“want people who've ever kind of been in that position to know. Like that was not okay that that person did that, but you also shouldn't feel shame for having that reaction, because that's really what abuse does to you.”

“because that's really what abuse does to you. You left Nike's Oregon. project in 2016 and your dream had been working with Salazar becoming pro.”

“What did it feel like to choose to walk away? It was incredibly difficult and it was deeply upsetting and in many ways it wasn't fully my choice.”